Undiagnosable thoughts

I need a place where I can belong 
This alternate world is not my home 
I suffocate here 

The hollow laughs of the hollow men 
Embarrassing Carnival Parade 
Can’t stand more lights! 

I don’t care if those times are over 
I’m not going to live like everyone 
I don’t care if those times are over 
My future is living in the past 

I feel like the touchstone 
In a river of wounded hearts 
What happened to our days 
They used to be so full of life 
In a different way 

Used to be so easy 
Used to be so good between us 
Words had a different meaning 
The simple things were significant 

I don’t care if those times are over 
I’m not going to live like everyone 
I don’t care if those times are over 
My future is living in the past 

Even clowns don’t scare me anymore

To the citizens of the world, we are Anonymous. Just a few months ago we witnessed the travesties committed by the American government via their attempts to censor the internet. Through the combined effort of Anonymous and the internet alike, the stop online privacy act SOPA and Protect IP Act PIPA were defeated. But since that time the governments have shown that they do not learn from their mistakes. Instead they embrace the failed policies of the regimes which they criticize and wage war upon. Behind closed doors the governments of the world have agreed to censor the internet in order to appease the corrupt banks, and corporate entities that have been enshrined within the hearts of every government making us, the people, pay for their bigotry, as we have seen in Iceland and are now seeing throughout Greece. This document in question is the Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement, ACTA Which effectively molests your right to fair use and allows corporations to dictate and capitalize on your free speech. They have overstepped their limits, defiled their documents written by we the people, even now with the movement of a hand they can silence you into indefinite detention or even warrant your death. But when the people cry out for injustice they abuse use the very authority which you have given them to manipulate you into silence.

But they do not want us to speak. Even now we suspect orders are being shouted into telephones and men with guns will soon be on their way. Why? Because while the truncheon may be used in lieu of conversation, words will always retain their power. Words offer the means to meaning and for those who will listen, the enunciation of truth. And the truth is, there is something terribly wrong with this world, isn’t there?

Cruelty and injustice…intolerance and oppression. And where once you had the freedom to object, to think and speak as you saw fit, you now have sensors and systems of surveillance, coercing your conformity and soliciting your submission. How did this happen? Who’s to blame? Well certainly there are those who are more responsible than others, and they will be held accountable. But again, truth be told…if you’re looking for the guilty, you need only look into a mirror.

We know why you did it. We know you were afraid. Who wouldn’t be? War. Terror. Disease. There were a myriad of problems which conspired to corrupt your reason and rob you of your common sense. Fear got the best of you and in your panic, you turned a blind eye to your freedom and sold it for security. They promised you order. They promised you peace. And all they demanded in return was your silent, obedient consent.

But there were those who fought, against the machine. Supplying truth in times of darkness, reassuring hope when all was lost. But the machine grew gluttonous, and denied Wikileaks the revenue required to maintain its deeds. The machine is visa. The machine is MasterCard. The machine is your bank, your government the liberals and the conservatives any organization hell bent on living off of you, feeding you lies when you aren’t hungry and starving you of knowledge when you are famished for the truth. But the truth is there is no cure for greed. Greed has poisoned men’s souls; has barricaded the world with hate; has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed. We have developed speed, but we have shut ourselves in. Machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical; our cleverness, hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery we need humanity. More than cleverness, we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost. The airplane and the internet have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in man; cries out for universal brotherhood; for the unity of us all.  Even now our voice is reaching millions throughout the world, millions of despairing men, women, and little children, victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people like Bradley manning who shined light on the confidential atrocities of war. To those who can hear us, we say “Do not despair.” The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed, the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress. The hate of men will pass, and dictators die, and the power they took from the people will return to the people. And so long as men die, liberty will never perish.  Be there no cure for greed there is surely a solution. And this solution is transparency. It is clear to us what we must do and we urge you to do so as well. On the 31st of March Operation Global Blackout will go into full affect.  For the cause of liberty, for the good of mankind and for the laughs the internet as we know it will go dark in protest for the collective grievances of all. We recognize that our methods will be labeled by some as extreme, and are willing to accept this fate in order to achieve our goals. A goal of free speech for all and oppression for none. Speak amongst each other, break free from the prison in which they’ve placed your mind. Become involved speak out to what you see unjust perceive what they are trying to conceal from you. They are not our Sheppard for we are not sheep. And on the 31st of March we shall remind them of this. 

We are Anonymous.

We are Legion.

We do not Forgive.

We do not Forget.

You know who you are, Expect us.

I dreamt i hoped and desired what was us
but how sadness and anger spurned the spirit of light
eons divide us in spirit and mind
what i thought we once had, is now spoiled and confined
mediocre words full of condescending love?
i hear devils that laugh from the heavens above
we piss on benevolence and we ponder in hate
but refuse to acknowledge that the urine tastes great

The silence absorbs any feelings of hope
all the tears that are shed make desire implode
so fearless we walk to damnation ahead
where passion once burned, we lay vanquished and dead
the feeling of love untouched by decline
is now carved in my flesh and revised by the blind
pathetic and wilted we persist to believe
that compassion will rise and redeem the deceived

Sky above my head
Open mind
And I try to think
Think of all these words
Should have said
Didn’t want to escape
From this dreamWhere I want to be

Wish you knew how much
I’ve been wanting to talk to you
Still carry me
Nothing’s changed
Sky above my head
For the first time
Since I lost your smile

And the thing that I feel
You’ll never know
I am really afraid of telling the truth
And the thing that I feel
You’ll never know
I am really afraid of losing you

I’ve been watching you
Not waiting for the right moment to make the first move
Do you want to know
Why I keep avoiding your eyes
And why I’m running away?
It’s crazy, I know

I’ve been conceiving you for too long

Or maybe I’m destined to be alone?
Or maybe there’s someone who will understand
That I’m not able to share my world?
I’m still running away
It’s crazy, I know

I’ve been conceiving you for too long
If only I could change all things around
I’ve been conceiving you for too long
I’ve grown used to that 

Still conceiving you all along…

” I fuck you because you’re famous.
I fuck you for your money.
I fuck you to control you.
I fuck you so someday I can have half of everything you own.
I fuck you to fuck you over.
I fuck you ‘til I find someone better.
I fuck you in secret.
I fuck you because I can’t remember if I already fucked you before.
I fuck you out of boredom.
I fuck you because I can’t feel it anyway.
I fuck you to make the pain go away. 
I fuck you so I can feel something instead of nothing at all.
I fuck you because you’re beautiful.
I fuck you because you’re my nigger.
I fuck you because I am your whore.
I fuck you because you are a whore.
I fuck you for fun.
I fuck you because I can.
I fuck you so I have a place to stay.
I fuck you so you will protect me. “

~ Fuck you because I loved you,
I don’t need a reason to hate you the way I do. ~

Bury all your secrets in my skin.
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins.
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. 
I can’t destroy what isn’t there.

Deliver me into my Fate -
If I’m alone I cannot hate
I don’t deserve to have you…
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago,
If I can change I hope I never know.

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss.
I couldn’t face a life without your light,
But all of that was ripped apart, when you refused to fight.

So save your breath, I will not care.
I think I made it very clear.
You couldn’t hate enough to love.
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren’t my friend.
Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint…
Ooh, my own was banished long ago,
It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul.
You never needed any help…
You sold me out to save yourself…

And I won’t listen to your shame.
You ran away, you’re all the same.
Angels lie to keep control…
Ooh, my love was punished long ago,
If you still care, don’t ever let me know…

I know we’re passing by
See the shadows of our own
Apart from where we are
We still believe
And raise our hopes
We’re locked up alone
Going nowhere
Waiting for the dawn
And just like shooting stars
We sleep in flames
Until we burn up
We burn up

How many lives we live
Poised between all heaven and earth
How many times we die
Trying for rebirth with a different mask
No matter where we go
Souls adrift never say goodbye

Толку лесно да се заборави,
отстрани од совеста,
сите инстанци,
што некогаш беа важни.
Никогаш не мислев дека тие нешта
ќе имаат толку големо значење
се додека Тој не побара од мене
да ги вратам.

Кога го сретнав Карон,
тој ми се насмеа
Можам да се заколнам дека ја имав видено таа насмевка порано
“Мораш да избереш” - тој рече
“И ќе можеш да се вратиш назад
ќе добиеш уште една шанса да оживееш
Ако одлучиш да ги задржиш
твоите спомени од минатото
од сите други ќе бидеш заборавен
Ако ми дозволиш да ти го земам умот
ако ми дозволиш да ти ја земам душата
во нивните срца ќе останеш засекогаш
Твој е изборот.

Сега е моментот,
на раскрсницата од твојот послеживот
Дел од тебе мора да биде изгубен
идлучи се
избери страна
одбери карта
фрли паричка
Времето е сега
те прашувам повторно
Да видиме која боја
твоето изгрејсонце ќе ја има овој пат”

Што ќе остане од мене,
само картонска кутија со мисли 
Што ќе остане од мене,
моите мали бегања од реалноста,
што ќе преживее
и што ќе земам со мене
во земјата на бесконечните

Ако го отсечам минатото,
ќе стане многу мрачно овде…